Just because

Just because-I always put on a smile, doesn't mean that I don't have problems.

Just because-I laugh a lot, doesn't mean I don't take things seriously.

Just because-I appear happy, doesn't mean everything is okay.

Just because-I like to take pictures, doesn't mean that I'm confident.

Just because-I have a lot of friends,  doesn't mean that I don't feel lonely.

Just because-I forgive,  doesn't mean you can take me for granted.

Just because-I'm straight forward, doesn't mean that I'm insensitive.

Just because-I don't keep in touch all the time, doesn't mean I don't care.

Just because-I don't show my feeling often, doesn't mean I don't have any.

Just because-I don't say I love you often, doesn't mean I don't.

Just because-I cried, it doesn't mean I'm not tough.

Just because-I'm stubborn, doesn't mean I expect you to change for me.

Just because-I kept quite, doesn't mean I'm afraid to stand up for myself.

Just because-I'm a christian, doesn't guarantee that I'm don't make mistakes.

I do
 make wrong decisions.

I'm just human like you.
 I'm prone to mistakes and I'm sure you do too.

I can be emotional and sensitive. I admit. but, I'm not afraid to show it because this is me. I believe that a true friend see how a suckie you can be but, still wants you in their life because they won't easily give up on you. Don't be afraid to show the fragile side of you, people will never know how you feel if you never let it show.

Crying is how your body speaks when your mouth can't explain the pain you feel. It's good to cry. but, you can't be crying forever. Positive action is the appropriate response to a negative thought. After that, smile! let everyone know that you are stronger than you were yesterday.happy reading peeps! :)

took this picture cause was too bored waiting alone in starbucks

Remember,"showing your emotion is a sign of strength" 

God Bless y'all ;) 

Nearly lost it

Phew~ *wipe my sweat* finally I can login to my facebook account!! Was so worried for the pass two days because my account was somehow hacked after I've clicked into some link. (If y'all notice, I hasn't been active for the pass two days :P) I changed my password for a few times and I felt really helpless, troubled and stupid for clicking into that link. It seems that there's another person who actually changed my password and I couldn't login. When I track back my change of password activity through my email. The person who login to my account was from KL and Kota Kinabalu. Distress siao when I read the email! After reporting, there's nothing I can do but just wait.

The sense of regret build up so strong that I didn't know what to say but, just shocked in front of the screen. I didn't tell anyone about this at home (since that day was Christmas) and I just kept it to myself, talked to God and hope for the best. After I've reported to facebook, my account was locked for the pass 24 hours. Until this afternoon, when I try login again, I was able to do so. was sososo happy and overwhelmed with joy that I can get my account back. Thank God for that. :D

In this case, I guess everyone would feel the same, because thinking about starting a new account means to start from zero "0" and it really saddens me because I'll need to add my friends all over again and the most important thing is losing all the photos in which people tag me in over all these years, the comments, status, history and everything would be gone. I guess, what matters the most is the memories. Another lesson learned. No more next time! Stupid link!

Curiosity does killed the cat. You should be wondering what did I clicked that cause such an anxiety to myself. Well, recently in facebook there are a lot of people who shared those links about changing your facebook theme/timeline colour thingy. At first, I don't even boder about it. I just scroll down and ignore it. However, when some people started tagging me in this "change your timeline thingy" post, I felt kinda annoyed. While untaging, I was curious whether this thing really works and ended up clicking into it. I followed the steps and suddenly I felt something is not right.Bam! I can't access to my account *slap forehead* I don't know why I did that, follow the steps one by one some more =.= got me so emotional after doing that. ish!

The metaphoric expression when I was shocked. almost drowned

Nevertheless, I'm glad that it's over and I can regain access to my account. :D WEEE~~ and I've passed up my web assignment. free of assignments, like finally!! still, need to read up for my coming exam. til then, watch some movie and relax first!! :P

That's all for today.

TTYL XOXO

Thoughts

In my blog, I always reveal about the happy-go-lucky side of me and you seldom see me writing an emo post like now. But, today, I wanna say I don't know why I'm so emo on this joyous day. Saying don't know is just lying to myself. I know, but, I just decided to keep it to myself with the word "Don't know". It's not just one thing..It's like so many things came up all at once. It's like many arrows aiming at you at different directions but, you got only one shield. There's no choice but to get wounded for those arrows that you didn't manage to avoid.

It's Christmas and I'm suppose to be happy. I've always love Christmas..and December is always my favourite month. But everything I expected doesn't turn out..and when you expect something, it didn't happen, guess what, Yes, disappointments...

I notice that this semester I met a lot of disappointments. Maybe God is teaching me to take disappointments by finding comfort in Him. whenever I feel like I have no one to talk to or no one could understands me, I talk to Heavenly Daddy. I know He would understand and I can just cry out to Him. I'm glad that I have someone to turn to whenever I feel this way. I would named Him....my comfort, my refuge, my strong tower in whom I trust. He's always there, waiting for me, but, a lot of times, I'm so engrossed in my own world that I left Him out. It's only when I met with problems, difficulties, sadness etc, I turned back and saw how faithful God is and how unfaithful I am. Ashamed, yet that's is when I needed Him the most..and I know I shouldn't run away from Him.

It's makes me think about the numerous disappointments that I've given to God, my parents and the people around me. I come to realize that, this is how it feels to be disappointed. In spite of that, God still show His love to me, comforted me, lead me through, and send people to help and encourage me. I have to say, I do felt a sense of guilt and condemnation. Even so, all these just went away when I looked at the grace that He had given to me through His son, Jesus Christ. It brings me to tears to come to think about how undeserving I am, a sinner to receive the grace of God. Grace is a gift from God and it's freely given to those He loves.

Guess who God loves??  John 3:16 For God so love THE WORLD, that He GAVE His only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. "The World" simply means everyone on this planet earth either you're dead or alive and that includes you and me. even though you're not a christian, God still loves you, always waiting for you to accept His son, Jesus Christ. He is the only God who GIVES first even before we ask. Many times we thought that we need to give something to God, offer or do something in order to receive. But our God is on the other way round, He gives even before you ask simply because He loves you. :') He's constantly looking forward to bless you and prosper you. That is how great He is. 

Surely when you've tasted His goodness, you'll never go searching around anymore because only Jesus can give you the peace that surpasses all understandings.

His grace is sufficient for me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 and  the verse continues..... "His power is made perfect in weakness". Writing these all out really makes me feel better now. I might be weak, but His power is made perfect in my weakness. Thank you Lord, once again for listening to the murmurs of my heart. HAHA!! I'm smiling now. It's a sincere smile which I feel deep within :D

Always remember, Christmas exist because of the birth of Jesus Christ. X'mas is a wrong term and I don't know how it came about. Please spell it correctly yo. Christmas is meaningless without Christ because without Christ, we can never find salvation for our soul and the way back to the Father. The gift exchange actually revolves around the idea of giving.. Christmas is all about giving because on this day a child was given to us and His name is Jesus. :)

chubby cheeks = Me

Another reason for myself to react in such a way probably because of  PMS(excuse to be emo XD)

urgh~~ so easily get irritated and fustrated.haha! till then, gonna continue doing my web assignment. need to pass up on thursday. Life goes on!! CHEERS~ 

stay tunned kay?? ;)

signing off,

XOXO

Here it comes

Time flies..

was working few months ago..

 felt excited about the university..

cant wait to leave home..

but, eventually when orientation started, i just feel like going home..

i'm surrounded with hundreds and thousands of people which i do not know

i felt helpless 

i felt lonely

i search through the crowds to find whether there's any familiar faces

i have to admit it..i'm homesick~ T.T

i try my best to make as much new friend as possible..

because you'll never know..

when u need help, they maybe the ones that you can look for.. 

i was so used to the life in Ipoh and everything was in my reach

now, being in a new enviroment

i have to start all over again..

learn how to take buses in Penang and the whereabout in campus.

anyway i am grateful that i have friends from Ipoh

seeing them there is comforting and at the same time encouraging 

atleast, i got someone who's from the same school with me.

and they are my besties too..

felt relief that i can speak cantonese with them

majority of the chinese here speak chinese instead of cantonese

i just enjoy speaking cantonese so much..

LOL

Well,

in this process of starting a new life,

i felt that i'm learning to be more independant and mature.

Praise be to God that He is always there to comfort me,

giving me the joy and peace. =)

i have a testimony though..

two days ago,

my neighbour, a chinese girl, lost her hand phone..

i was washing my clothes when i heard about the news,

she look for it all around and couldn't find it..

she tried calling her phone just incase someone pick it up and able get it back

unfortunately there wasn't any answer..

suddenly a thought came to my mind..

"pray for her"

at first i struggled..i thought maybe i let her look around first

then, if really couldn't find, i'll pray for her..

 when she came back. i asked her again.

the answer was no.

but, the prompting gets stronger

 so, i offer praying for her.

she nodded and say yes..

i went on and prayed.

a simply prayer

"Dear heavenly father in heaven, please help my friend here to get back her phone.

i trust and believe in You, in Jesus name i pray. Amen!"

i was in the toilet ending the prayer with a loud amen..

in my heart i talk to God and say 

"God, since u want me to pray for her i'm sure u'll do something about it..

to show that You're real and alive"

After she finished her bath, there was a phone call for her 

telling her that her phone is found, left it

in one of the stall in our cafeteria..

she was so happy and thank me for praying for her..

i say don't thank me..thank Jesus and

she said thank you to Jesus too~ =)

To me,

It's was very encouraging..

God answers prayers.

Jesus is alive and He loves us very much!

hope u enjoy reading this short update of mine =D

The beginning of my uni life.

It's gonna be very interesting 

cause Jesus is with me all the time =)

XOXO

it's a new month

it's a new month and definitely a new start for me ^^

opps i did it again..

just want to share with u guys that i'm goin to quit my job..=D

what? yea~

probably looking for a better one..hehe!

shh!!!

honestly saying, this company don't provide much employee benefits

too many rules to follow and the stress just goes on and on.. 

 I was curious why in the world they don't provide chairs or a place for customer to sit down 

   (so that we-workers can sit down for awhile when there isn't any customer)

XD

 Besides that, it's terrible that we (just worked for a few months) need to

  pay for the missing stocks

    while the company doesn't provide any tools like shop theft sensor to prevent it..

     even watson has this not to mention having so many stores in malaysia..

prevention is better than cure..

having this preventive methods atleast 

 we don't need to worry so much about theft and paying for the missing stock..>.<

IF i'm saying IF their silly excuse is to save cost on company's expenses 

i call it selfish and irresponsible..

how do u expect us to keep watch over everyone who walks in 

when we just have a pair of eyes and the crowd keeps on coming in? 

(especially weekends and public holiday)

just because 'U' wanna save cost, we risk to pay through our nose..unfair lor.

+i'm not a confirm staff yet =.=

they let me be a part timer for the 1st 2 months bcz they wanna have more comission

since less permanant staff they can get more comission when divide among themsleves.

WTH?

I've been a customer also and i don't quite like it when people following me around 

  talking this and that while all i want is just leave me alone and if i'm interested,

  i'll call for your help..right?

now in turn, i'm that annoying person following people around..=.=

if i don't follow the customer or talk to them more 

(introduce other stuffs to them), 

i'll get reprimand for it..sad case*shake head*

sometimes we need to give some space for the customer to think..

bashing them with crap won't help to get them buy things..

PUHLEESE~

for me, i think it's sufficiently enough to inform them(customer)the current promotion..

and let them walk around..

if somehow they look interested on certain things, explain to them about the product too..

it would be much better though..=)

it's good to set target for everyday's sales..

but, if there's not much customer coming in, how do you expect the sales to be high..

common sence right?

it's not that we don't work hard enough!?

besides, i that think we shouldn't  bring our personal emotion to work

right? like unleash your anger on someone else.. 

i understand everyone has their high and lows..

but, when you work please make it clear don't transfer the anger to us..lol

it's so WRONG !! =D

nonetheless i'll say something good about my working place

it has taught me alot..really alot..haha~

life lesson that cannot be learn in text books..

so, thanks to you guys..(Aw..)

i love the people but, just sometimes dislike how they work. hehe!

i'll surely "miss" you Jason..and don't say so much vulger language larh~

not good not good..HAHA!

since u want me to mention you in my bloggie

here u go..u must be smilling now..(help me to click on the adds ar)

LOL

i feel like i'm such a grandma right now..=.=

to rap up everything..

when we're studying, we cant wait to start working

when we started working, we can't wait to go back studying

i find out that working can be quite lifeless cause it's like

 going through the same routine everyday

 for me it's kinda boring..lol

anyway, i still need to pay for the missing stocks before i leave.

i heard that it's not a small amount 

$$$ goes flying away le..T.T

just wanna tell the bosses out there to walk in our shoes too..

appriciate your worker and surely they'll be so willing to "fight" for u..

HAHA!!

till then, byebye guys~

XOXO

  

stay tunned for my next post ^^

girls stuffy

i felt that my skin is quite bad nowadays *shake head* 

huhu~ it's my off day again..and recently i'm kinda into perfume, watches, bag...etc

and as usual..make ups~

btw, watson is having member day..and i'm a member.=D

bought some new cosmetic..wee~

but i havent finish using my old cosmetic..

felt that i'm such a spendthrift..=(

i have to hypnotise myself to stop buying because sooner or later i'll be broke..

need to control myself not to over spend..=P

maybe next time i shall introduce my make ups babies in my make up bag..hee~

 walah!! my purpose of updating my blog..taadaa~

i bought a new bag..

nice right??hehe.. =*

it's not a branded bag or something

as long as i like it... that's what that matters..right?

i'm not a person who is obsess with branded stuffs..

but what i look for is quality and my "love at 1st sight" feeling..

haha! girls should understand this..

so satisfy with it..suits me and i love it..<3

gosh, i might get another bag when my pays is out..who knows?lol

the problem is....

it's  hard to find things with the "love at 1st sight" feeling..*sigh*

as i'm quite fussy at buying things..blame myself lor =.=

but, i will not give up..haha!

it's not wrong to be fussy..lol

because we, girls just want to look at our best whenever we go out *nodnod

maybe bcz different people have different character..

that's why everyone have their own style of dressing up themselves..=)

that's it for now..remember to follow me..HAHA!

cheers, lovesss~

BTW, i was working during valentines..=P

so a belated HAPPY VALENTINES to all lovers!!!

lol

Before and After

Finally, today is my off day 

and i have time to update my blog!

miss me??

HAHA~say yes..=P

well, my 1st week of working is not bad

 the people are nice and i must be

fully groomed to work everyday *like

cause with make ups on, you'll feel more confident..right?hehe..

we always heard a saying that is

there are no ugly women but lazy ones..

do u agree with that?

at some point it may be true

in this world nobody is ugly, is whether your're hardworking enough to groom yourself up.=)

take a look at the pics and don't be surprise

O.O

  see how much difference it makes??

 but, some may say it's very troublesome to put on make ups all the time whenever u go out

and the worse part is taking them off..

i understand..or maybe light make up will do..

lined your eyes up is simple yet make a big difference 

and it's easy to be removed too..=)

this is me before and after..haha~

2mrw i'm working full day..>.<

gonna update if i got the time..

stay tunned peeps!

Mwah~

click on the ads if there's any..

Thankiew so much!! =D

Hairs

 u grow super slow 

but,i'm fine with it as long as u're healthy and strong

i wash u clean, make sure u smell good everyday

sein u grow up makes me smile

i love my hair

lol

Exam is yet to be over

but,i feeling super excited when i thought of it..

wee~

so much so i've been waiting for that moment since last year

it's coming...

but, wait...

 i havent decide...

Straight or curl??

mind me not,my hair grows real slow

i didn't cut my hair 4 almost a year =D

since i'm still schooling and i need to tie my hair up everyday

so,my mum don't encourage me to "do" my hair

i look kinda kiddo i know..

At first,i just thought of getting my hair straighten aka rebonding

because my hair is abit frizzy and curly

so,it makes me looks messy at times..hehe my hair is never tidy lol

maybe after straightening,it will be easier for me to handle my hair

straight hair with side swept bangs

neat and nice..=)

But,for a second thought
how about getting curls...

mermaid curls

looks pretty cute..hehe

cool

and gorgeous too..

hmmm....

i'm in dilemma now..

maybe i should ask the hairstylist

blek~

Oh ya..
found some interesting hairstyles too..*grin*

sweet

ew~i bet it smells..poor beef..

i prefer to eat it than putting it on my head..what a waste

maybe she dreams of being a living statue of liberty..

don't forget the torch..or the beer...lol

a mickey mouse fans to be

turns out to be a disaster

but, looks like she likes her hair
with the big smile..
rofl

he likes flowers..maybe..or he's trying to attract some bees, garls??

okay, that looks like algae growing on his head..ew~

the most authentic jelly fish head..

i think maybe rainie yang copied from her..lol

mommy says tv is a stupid box

if u watch too much..u might just end up having this..

 a box head

ouch..seriously i can feel the hair screaming for pain

this mister probably don't like his own face..

so,he created a new face from his hair..not bad..kinda handsome.. XP

disco too much *shake head*

Do u know what is on her head??

=.=''

=.="

=.="

Condoms!!

condoms on your head..maybe i know why..

she's preventing someone to have sex with her head..

it doesn't make sense i konw..lmao

desperately need kisses..and extra eyes..

hey, a music lover..how nice..errr...aunty

a shitty head

his's constantly reminding himself to shit..

how "smart"

 and last but not least animal hairstyle..

hope u guys enjoy the pics..

because i did..

LOL

last paper 2mrw...freedom!!

wee~*thrilled*